the pages of my life were always filled with good intentions, but something,

always manages to happen to mangle the chords or strangle the song.
my life seems to be a series of train wrecks, and i am continually in a constant state of recovery.
i tire of the game and the conflict. 

but, lately, my heart feels like this ...

just a funny ... :>D

Her choice of tribute preference reminds me of someone i know. ;>)

i think i'm good at this ... :>)

my Mistress seemed happiest when ...

i want to be hooked ...

i want to be caught ... i'm tired of swimming free.

broken, underfoot, yet loved ...

a repost ... "Hunger", from notjustbitchy blog

a movie comment triggers submissive feelings of dread

i had been invited by my Mistress over to Her place to socialize and watch a movie called, "The Boondock Saints." it was a non-stop bloody, gory vissage of continual gang related killings and masochistic beatings and murders. as the movie progressed, Her roomate continued to look at me to monitor my reaction to the killing spree. He then began to psycho analyze one of the scenes and in the process and unbeknowing to him triggered  some very strong fetish, and submissive levers within me.

"so, do you like the movie?  the next one is even better.... it has scenes like ... well if You (me) were the guy and She (my Mistress) were to get into a fight, and you would probably beat Her up and then She would try, but wouldn't be able to and ... " (cut off) one of Her friends then spoke up.

"Yeah, I would definitely like to see that, but I would pick up my video camera and record the whole thing.and i don't think it would be that kind of outcome. I mean it would definitely be interesting and entertaining and all to see who kicks whos'e ass. You know what I mean?" He winked at my Mistress and i knew exactly what he had inferred.

my Mistress let out a loud, raucous belly laugh and even though W/we were in the dark. i could tell She was looking holes through me. it does not take a rocket scientist to know that in a real fight situation, that She would very well likely pulverize me, kick the shit out of me, and beat me senseless. afterall, She has done it many times before, and is not only skilled in wrestling, but has broken my nose twice from Her hard bony knuckles, and kneed me more times in the groin than i can remember. but, most lethal, are Her powerful well aimed kicks that have left me dazed, confused, contused and bloodied. Her skills in physical combat are unparalleled and unmatched. my anticipated ending under Her feet and fists, would either be in a vegetative state in the ICU, or in a body bag in the morgue.

i looked down and cowered in the dark,  for tonight, my mind was my worst enemy, and there in the dark ... She knew it also.

have a Happy kinky Halloween!

speaking of my nutshell

this is who i am and my identity in a nutshell.
 http://femdom101.blogspot.com/2013/10/the-second-self.html

preliminaries to a beatdown

"you are fucking pathetic"..."there's one word for you...inadequate" "you will never be anything more than the wimp you are" Her scathing words sear into my subconscious. She is cruel, heartless and works her languid castigatious tongue like a true artisan. Her words are hurled at me as a whip. Slashing and tearing and marking me with each humiliated confession. her probes have gone into the deepest recesses of my mind drilling and breaking me down into consumable pieces for her mindfucking pleasure. She smiles then pouts as she sees a trickle of blood swell then drip. She catches it with a long nail, tastes it, smiles then raises the phone book again and with a well aimed ..."

posted and written by:  pescado

beautiful sentiments of ownership

now why do i feel like i have just had a lobotomy?

Another review of a phone session with a toxic and lethal Mistress:

Our First Meeting: of all the Mistresses that i have met here on Niteflirt , this one genuinely scares the shit out of me. she does not yell, scream or hurl insults at you. Yet like a well trained boxer she weaves and dances before you jabbing here and there poking your mind for weaknesses and hidden secrets. She is flexible and limber on her feet and her methods are quick and lethal. she strikes quickly and before you know it you have divulged a little bit more of you to her. she deftly spins you up in her web and entices you with the promise of what you thought you wanted, but twists the experience and takes it to the edge. will call her again. 

blood

a short review of a session with a Mistress, that i met on Niteflirt. i still have have the bloody remnants of a destroyed t-shirt She tore, ripped through and utterly destroyed. it was a mind crushing and numbing experience that  i will remember 'til the grave.

"blood...it is rich...crimson...thick...surges and pulses through our veins. yet, to the masochist it is the means by what is measured as a symbol..the spilling of it represents the symbol of the perfect sacrifice given willingly to satiate the desires and lust of the sadist. for blood has the power to excite, entice and empower those who freely give it and those who take it. it enrages and engages the the ying and the yang of bdsm. its power lies in its sacrifice. for the true sadist understands the power that is elicited by a well placed blow as the punch follows through and smashes the cartilage spilling blood..wonderful blood."

Penny Barber VS WrestlerWannabe-Girl Beats Up Boy - Video Dailymotion

Penny Barber VS WrestlerWannabe-Girl Beats Up Boy - Video Dailymotion

wishful thinking ...

scars are secret stories of the heart

older men vs younger men, renting as opposed to owning ... something to ponder and think about

some relevant thoughts comparing and contrasting the differences in owning an older man as opposed to a younger one.
a blog repost from Ms Kathy, Femdom 101

this is a very thoughtful and insightful post on this subject.

It was UKKink who made the comment about the ninety plus year old man who wrote all his remarks with capital letters. It was this comment that reminded me of a posting I have been wanting to make for some time. At the conception of Femdom 101 my though was that it would be predominately younger men who visited the site. Why, exactly, I had this conception never really occurred to me. In the studio the average age of the clients was above forty. It was not at all unusual to have a sixty plus year old man crawl in on his hand and knees. Since the studio was a rather expensive place ... more »


http://femdom101.blogspot.com/2013/10/older-men-younger-men.html

it was a honor for me to carry Her purse

slapped!

the worshipped and the worshipper

some more edgy breath play

creative sadistic head restraint

always looking for edgier ways to have fun.

Reebok Commercial 'Talking Tennis Balls'

i want it ... so badly

Foot Locker - Again (this is just awesome!)

i just ... (sigh)

and this is how it begins ... :)

... and this is how it ends. :(

water training

i like this pic very much so. in many respects, this is quite a tender yet affirming pic. the training that is taking place reveals the close relationship that this sub and Domme have. his trust and submission in Her is absolute, if not fundamental to his very existence and survival. on the other hand, Her complete mental domination of him starts with a kick into the pool, and ends with an intriguing smirk.

i like this quote from the Marquis de Sade :)

Her speedbag

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can you imagine what it must feel like to be under Her pummeling fists? bound and tied with no chance to move or escape. attached to Her swivel and then suspended upside down and hoisted up through the ceiling until only your head can be seen. oh, the exquisite bruising, cuts and abrasions from Her muscle packed jabs and punches.

it's always been a fantasy of mine to be a human speedbag for a fit Mistress. maybe one day it will happen. (fingers crossed)

from paddle to boot or the other way around ...

ouch!

now, this would leave some impressive fucking marks! ];)~======> i wonder if they come with sneaker tread patterns?

pedicured predicament

this would be absolute torture for me. i would literally be a shaking mess by the time She was done.

servitude

Servitude. The state of being owned by a woman. It involves a lack of freedom on the part of the one who is under servitude and thereby takes away his right to act as he pleases.
(via untameddarkmane)


oh how i desire and wish with all my heart that this would just happen to me.
~pescado

a definition of submission - beautiful!

a definition of submission

submission is not about suffering.
submission is about service.

submission is not about humiliation.
submission is about humility.

submission is not about pain.
submission is about being present.

submission is not about being used.
submission is about being of use.

submission is not about control.
submission is about letting go.

submission is not about what is done to you.
submission is about what you do for others.

submission is not about abuse.
submission is about acceptance.

submission is not about proving anything.
submission is about being real.

submission is not about contempt.
submission is about respect.

submission is not about how you look.
submission is about how much you care.

submission is not about denying yourself.
submission is about being open.

submission is not about bondage.
submission is about freeing your spirit.

submission is not all about punishment.
submission is about discipline.

submission is not about being unable to escape.
submission is about being committed.

submission is not about submission.
submission is about obedience.

submission is not about fear.
submission is about trust.

submission is not all about sex.
Submission is about love.

submission is not about pleasure.
submission is about happiness.

Reposted From: The Femdom Chronicles

towel boy

just cause.

try to fill in the blanks.

office Ju Jitsu

a gentle moment after play

this is just too touching.

combat boots

yo', your Mistress wears combat boots.
ouch! ... now, those would leave some long lasting, nasty tread marks. };)~

roundhouse kick

oh wow! can Y/you imagine the high and the ecstacy after being beaten to a pulp by Y/your Mistress. certainly, it is possible a few teeth would of been forcibly dislodged, and there is a high probability of a concussion. but, the swelling of a fat lip, multiple bruises and lacerations, an enlarged swollen nose and a shiner of a black eye. this would be pure bliss for me.

here are the results that i would be looking for.
... a face that resembles pulverized and tenderized ground round.

serene submission in a simple form

malesubmissionart:

"This relatively tame photo of a young couple in the countryside struck a chord in Me. The Woman stands with one hand on the man’s head and a solemn expression on Her face while the man sits at Her feet and rests his forehead against Her thigh.
I love this image because, to Me, the man’s submission is all the more poignant in its simplicity."

Thanks to Ms S for sending this gorgeous and incredibly touching photo in.

-maymay
***Reblogged from MsBossyBecky Tumblr***

to sonder

kind of really puts a P/person's loves, hates, emotions, and feelings into perspective? ... huh?

...waiting

but, for what? any thoughts?

the ultimate realization of submission

one day this will happen to me.

to be the devoted pup and pet of a loving Mistress.

signs of things to come ...

the acceptance and emergence of Femdom entertainment clubs.

today's Girls at play. Femdom on the playground. acquiring the skills needed by rehearsing to take on the leadership roles essential in a Female led society.

closeness before absolute submission

anticipating the bite and sting of Her crop.

"but why can't i?"

... enough said, period.

about to be squashed ...

>Bluebean1 on deviantART
those of Y/you that have been reading my blog know that i have a particular affinity for Dominant, fit Women who wear sneakers and use that fetish against the men they enslave. this would be an absolute nightmare for me. i can't think of anything more terrifying than being squashed by the tread of my Mistress's tennis shoe. well, i could think of a few more things, but that will have to wait for another post. ;)

Maroon 5 - Misery

ok ... this is just plain hilarious

This probably has nothing to do with bdsm or Femdom with the exception of when the Female folksinger nails the heavy metal rocker in the nads. a very funny and creative video. *snark!* 

10,000 kicks!

10,000 kicks! a huge thanks to everyone for reading and viewing my blog!

i really mean this from the bottom of my heart! i want to thank both Domme and sub alike for taking the time to view what i have to say in regard to the trials, bond, and immense joy, and fulfillment of being involved in a Femdomme bdsm relationship. i appreciate all of Y/you taking time out of Y/your day to checkout my opinions, drawings, reflections, and stories in regard to the wonderful, amazing friendship, and relationship that i have been involved in with my Mistress. 

when i first attempted this blog, i wanted it to be a safe place where i could truly express my deepest feelings about what it means to submit to a Mistress and how the acknowledgement of that submission has changed my life. i was scared to use my voice to share and express those feelings, and even more fearful of being exposed or found out. W/we live in a world which does not understand or embrace the male submissive. he is seen and viewed many times as weak, inconsequential, and insignificant to both the vanilla world and the bdsm world which he longs to belong to. it is ironic that both Female Dominant and male submissive are locked in a dance of service and want. the Dominant wants the respect and adoration of the submissive. the submissive wants love and to feel needed from the Dominant, both need to be equally balanced.  this blog is an attempt to allow both sides to read and view each other hopefully from duo perspectives.

with that in mind, a humongous word of deep appreciation and thanks goes out to my bright, beautiful, creative and intelligent Mistress, without whom none of this would of been possible. She taught me to accept all that which i am and am not, and encouraged and permitted me to have a voice to share with others about O/our lifestyle choices and O/our experiences. during my years of indenture to Her, She has become an amazing and awesome friend, whom i love and cherish very much. i respect Her greatly, and treasure Her friendship, encouragement and sage advice. 

with that being said, i would like to look to the future of this blog.  what i would like, is for this blog to emerge and evolve into a safe place for both Domme and sub to express, comment and share about T/their true feelings and experiences in relation to the lifestyle and how it has changed T/their life. During the past 2 years since this blog's inception, only one person has bothered to submit a comment. it truly helps to hear what Y/you are thinking about out there. so, please feel free to submit comments. i just ask that everyone respect Domme and sub protocol in regard to posting. 

thanks again for reading! i look forward to continue posting on here. but, it would be awesome to hear some feedback once in awhile from some of Y/you. 

 best wishes to all of  Y/you, my dear readers. 

sushichum

10,000!

wow! 10,000 licks ... er ... hits! well, um ... Y/you know what i mean. gee thanks everyone! ;)

10,000 hits!

i would much rather undergo a brutal, ass kicking beatdown under the hands and feet of my Mistress then toast the blog's success with champagne. well, maybe afterwards, with a straw. of course, only with Her permission.

he belongs to Her

i wrote this for my Mistress, but i doubt that She has read this. lately, i have not felt like many of these things. my role has been greatly diminished, as She involved with another, and other facets of Her life which do not include me.