i think i'm good at this ... :>)

my Mistress seemed happiest when ...

i want to be hooked ...

i want to be caught ... i'm tired of swimming free.

broken, underfoot, yet loved ...

a repost ... "Hunger", from notjustbitchy blog

a movie comment triggers submissive feelings of dread

i had been invited by my Mistress over to Her place to socialize and watch a movie called, "The Boondock Saints." it was a non-stop bloody, gory vissage of continual gang related killings and masochistic beatings and murders. as the movie progressed, Her roomate continued to look at me to monitor my reaction to the killing spree. He then began to psycho analyze one of the scenes and in the process and unbeknowing to him triggered  some very strong fetish, and submissive levers within me.

"so, do you like the movie?  the next one is even better.... it has scenes like ... well if You (me) were the guy and She (my Mistress) were to get into a fight, and you would probably beat Her up and then She would try, but wouldn't be able to and ... " (cut off) one of Her friends then spoke up.

"Yeah, I would definitely like to see that, but I would pick up my video camera and record the whole thing.and i don't think it would be that kind of outcome. I mean it would definitely be interesting and entertaining and all to see who kicks whos'e ass. You know what I mean?" He winked at my Mistress and i knew exactly what he had inferred.

my Mistress let out a loud, raucous belly laugh and even though W/we were in the dark. i could tell She was looking holes through me. it does not take a rocket scientist to know that in a real fight situation, that She would very well likely pulverize me, kick the shit out of me, and beat me senseless. afterall, She has done it many times before, and is not only skilled in wrestling, but has broken my nose twice from Her hard bony knuckles, and kneed me more times in the groin than i can remember. but, most lethal, are Her powerful well aimed kicks that have left me dazed, confused, contused and bloodied. Her skills in physical combat are unparalleled and unmatched. my anticipated ending under Her feet and fists, would either be in a vegetative state in the ICU, or in a body bag in the morgue.

i looked down and cowered in the dark,  for tonight, my mind was my worst enemy, and there in the dark ... She knew it also.