symptoms of emasculation

a younger Female colleague and i have been assigned to work together on an important project at my employers. today, W/we met and discussed the logistics and parameters of the project. W/we set up some deadlines and talked about making some realistic and reachable goals. i thought things went quite well. however, as i was getting up to leave to head for home, i felt a tug on my jacket. She pulled me rather abruptly down to Her level and said,

"You know ... if You mess this up for Me, i'm going to have to punch you." i didn't know what to say? my mind went completely blank and i must of turned fifty different shades of pale. then the thoughts careened into my mind.

"does She know?" "does She suspect something?" "am i truly showing it that much?" "has She figured it out?" my mind was racing in twelve different directions. condemning me and cowering at the same time.

finally, after what seemed like an eternity, She released me.

She brushed off the sleeve of my jacket and said, "relax..., i'm just messing with you. i breathed easily. She continued to question and acted in amused puzzlement. "Hey, are you ok? you look kinda sick?"

i brushed it off and said that i had pains from something that i ate and that maybe i should use the restroom. She accepted my explanation and finally released the cuff of my jacket. i then, quickly left not bothering to look back.

as i drove home i started thinking about being submissive, and if i am "flaming"? does it really show that much? ... even when i am out in public? do i give off signals that i am totally emasculated? now, i am terribly worried.