pushover

W/we sat on the couch and She hammered me with Her next comment.

"I mean I don't know why she feels that way. Do you?" Her ratcheted gaze had me squirming like a bug in the shadow of the heel of one of Her boots.

i moved closer to the edge of the couch hoping to avoid conflict. "i can't imagine her feeling that way." i rattled and prattled away.  ... "i mean she is free to come by and pick up her things ... i'm not threatening in the least". my fidgeting seemed to vibrate the web i was sitting on.

crossing Her legs i watched as She pumped her calf up and down as it bunched then separated into amazing, compact, powerful bundles. each rhythmic pump She initiated made me that much more submissive to Her. the whirl and the twirl of Her long blue polished toes served to remind me of the prone position where i belonged.

"Uh ha ..." Her response was quick and rapier.

then those astonishing,  green penetrating eyes narrowed and seemed to bore holes into my skull.   anxious, jittery and extremely umcomfortable, i sought a means of escape, but knew better than to move without asking permission..

"that's right,  and you and i both know that you are nothing ...

but a mere pushover." ... ouch, that hurt.

i hunched my shoulders and slunk down lower into my seat, for deep down i knew She was right.

but, what exactly is a "pushover"?  the words She chose to direct towards me seemed to always sear and burn with a sweet, vapid, toxicity that had me reeling, faltering, trying to regain my shaky composure. it was as if She innately knew of my every weakness and male fraility. 

 i know i am a beta male, and i guess being a pushover comes with the territory, but i was truly curious as to what the actual defintion of a "pushover" was. what i found out confirmed my niche in the schema as being a bullied and natural target for aggressive and assertive women.

taking the task to lexographers to research the meaning, i started with the most traditional source of defining words; that of Merriam Webster.

Merriam Webster defines the word "pushover"as:

-an opponent that is easily defeated
-something that is easy to overcome or pursue (snap)
-someone who is easily persuaded or influenced

the full definition of the word is:

-something accomplished or overcome without any apparent difficulty
-an opponent who is easy to defeat or a victim that offers little if any resistance to being dominated or overpowered.
-someone who is unable to resist an attraction or appeal (sucker)

what is the history of the word?

in 1906 sportswriter and newspaper journalists used the word to describe a boxer who was clumsy, inept and easily overcome and beaten.

however, it was the synonyms that i discovered attached to this word that communicated to me the direct and true intent of Her meaning.

doormat, jellyfish, namby-pamby, weakling, reed, wimp, coward, milquetoast, mouse, nebbish, nervous, Nellie, pussy (slang), wuss, wussy, sheep

wow ... the power of words ...

my Mistress uses Her words to build, create and reinforce Her burgeoning media empire. yet, She also knows that Her words are also ubiquitous in terms of exerting influence and control over those whom She seeks to manipulate, and dominate.

as such, i am one of those who enjoys the weight of of Her words and the crack of Her sardonic wit. Her words, well chosen and selective bind me to Her service and continue to reinforce my position beneath Her feet.