thoughts on

this summer has been another one of adjustment for me. those of Y/you that read my blog consistently know that i have not published anything for quite awhile. i was hurt and stymied when i found out that my Mistress had decided that within the boundaries of Her new life, there was no room for me as Her slave. what was worse was that this was communicated to me by Her while She and i were both not in the most lucid of states. What i remember most was how lost i felt when She released me as Her pet and the big fucking, gaping chasm it left in my heart.

however, things have looked up and moved in a positive direction since then.  my Mistress has found that She cannot live without my service, and has praised me multiple times for being a good boy to Her. oh, how, i long to hear and live by those words as they spring so infrequently from Her lips.

this blog has been a thorn and a painful reminder of what had been, and it hurt too much to write what i was truly feeling after my release. i put it on the shelf for awhile and let my true self hammer things out in regard to my emotions and the grief i felt. it is never fun to confront soured human emotions. being a wary fish, my sub consciousness always directs me and guides me. as a pisces, i cannot help but be driven to and fro by that dichotomy.

within the next week or so, i hope to unmask amd unpack these feelings and reveal to Y/you the true healing that has finally begun to take place since these events transpired. perhaps, this vague insight will help other submissives who are feeling a bit despondent after being released.

chin-up my friends. chin-up. ~sushichum